Just wanted to say that my journal is going to be friends only from now on. If you are indeed my friend and do not have a livejournal account, then I suggest you make one if you want to read what I have to write haha. It takes about 5-10 minutes to make and is free. You dont have to update it but can use it to log in and see what I, or anyone else who is your friend, writes. Also, if you want me to add you, just comment to this entry and I'll most likely add you. Otherwise, sorry guys.

Date:	2005-01-20 15:14
Subject:	15 Minutes can save you 15% or more
Security:	Public
Mood:	hungry
Music:	Boyz II Men - Sara Smile

And shit, they are not lying. With switching to geico, I am saving $1700 off my insurance that I have now. And that is for the same exact coverage. I guess I was getting ripped off big time but it wasn't like I had a choice. Geico is still pretty much the only major insurance company back in NJ, and back in october of 2003 when I needed insurance, there was nothing.

Otherwise, I am back at school, all moved in and such. I started my classes yesterday even though classes for Rowan started on tuesday. Butttttt I do not have classes on tuesdays, so I started yesterday. I only have one class today and it was originally, 725-955 but then when I checked my schedule yesterday, it got changed to 445-715. It is still only once a week, so that works for me. Also, I think we may only meet every other week because basically it is an internship class for psychology. I am not sure though. I'll find out tonight I guess.

Other than that, I don't really have much to write about. I lead a boring life, I'm sorry. I have to get a job soon, but I don't know where. I don't want to travel past deptford this semester for work, so hopefully I can find something there or even closer. I am thinking about working on campus, but I don't knwo if I could afford that. Only because it's just like 10-12 hours a week. It would be ideal, but won't give me the money I need to pay my bills. I think I could get away with maybe 20-25 hours a week, but I can't get that from a campus job.

It is supposed to snow a lot this weekend. It snowed a lot here yesterday, well ok, not a lot. But enough. Only like 2-3 inches. But apparently this weekend is suppose to be massive amounts. We will see what happens I guess.

So apparently the different fonts and colors dont work. Oh well.

I have no idea why I am even writing an entry. I think it is just to try out the new client I have. Cause it can do this:


Different font colorsssssssssssss and sizes!!!


Ok, I'm done being a dork. Alright back to being bored and having nothing to do.

Date:	2005-01-09 17:25
Subject:	Sometimes
Security:	Public
Mood:	hungry
Music:	Usher - Confessions Part II

Sometimes you air ball a free-throw, the easiest shot possible in basketball...mostly cause it is well, free..but you air ball one. You can either cry about it and just say how you will be apart of basketball history forever about how you are now one of the few who actually air balled a free-throw. Or, you can do down the floor on the next possession and dunk it home.

Basically...shit happens. You can cry about it, get upset over it but then bounce back. Forget about it. It happens, which means it already happened. And no matter how much you get upset, or cry, or weep or wish you coulda did something different, you can't. The airball happened, and you can not go back in time and retake that shot. Once you accept that, you're good to go. Everyone gets down at some point, but there is no point in staying there, especially over something stupid like airballing a free throw. Yes this is a giant metaphor I'm using here but that's besides the point. Nonetheless, it is an important metaphor. Acceptance is key.

Or maybe I don't. Who knows, apparently...i might?

Anyway, whats going on? I am pretty bored, so bored infact I am writing a livejournal post. Plus, since I have been home, even since the last week of the semester, I think I have written one post. Yea, total slackage. Well, here I am to pick up the pace.

Winter break has been a bore, but in a good way. I really do nothing. So all my dreams of doing nothing pre-winter break, have come true. I sleep as late as I want every single day and I do whatever I want, which actually is usually and almost always nothing all the time. My friends and I have this wonderful thing going, its called...lets sit home online, and just not IM each other. I love it. It's a great thing to be apart of. And then, if I take the go ahead and IM them first, this is the typical conversation:

Me: Hey
Hey
Me: Whats going on?
Not much, you?
Me: Nothing really here either.
10 minutes later....
Me: What are you upto for the rest of the day?
I'm not sure, what about you?
Me: Nothing really at all. If you want to do anything, let me know.
Ok.

--- End of Conversation---


Yup, that is what happens. Of course, I never hear from them, and if they do eventually come around, I usually am A) Sleeping, B) Watching a movie or C) Found something to do and am not here. Then, it is my fault usually because we don't hang out enough or something to that effect. When I try, nothing comes out of it. I just think it's funny. Sure, people will probably get pissed when they read this, but here is me caring. I really don't care anymore. You wanna hang out with me, coooooooooool. If you don't, coooooooooool. Last I checked, I didn't choke and die because you ditched me and/or just because we don't hang out anymore. This you is general here folks, so don't get your panties in a twist. Basically saying, I don't need you or anyone to keep breathing and/or go about my everyday life.


This may make it seem like I hate everyone, or even just a lot of people. This is not true. I just don't get how people work sometimes haha, that is all. It is rather amusing. Yea I know I cancel sometimes, but everyone does. I am allowed too, everyone is. I also find it rather funny that I have buddy list, even after making a new screenname with people on it that I talk to maybe once a month if I'm lucky, or not at all. Just pointing it out obviously, but then I know a bunch of people who have a group on their buddy list called "People I never talk too" or "dickheads" or something to that effect. I guess if you just ever need their screenname for one stupid moment, you have it still. Life is just funny. Maybe people think I'm boring or maybe there just isn't anything to do at all. I get close to going crazy with boredom sometimes over this not long enough break, but still. I know as soon as I get back to school, I am going to be like..spring break?!?!???????? Where are you!? And then after that, summer?!!!!!????????? Where ARE YOU SUMMER!!!? Which proceed to me sleeping all the time and never going to the beach, even though I would go every day if the sun stayed up until like 10 or 11pm. I would be the tannest motherfucker of the summer. Of course, since I do not wake up for ANYTHING or ANYBODY...I usually miss out on the beach. I turn off alarm clocks in my sleep without knowing it, and if I do actually wake up, I just turn them off and go right back to sleep for about as long as I so desire. Yea I'm an asshole, but oh well. I like to sleep, bite me. Maybe it is because for a while in my life I sacrificed a lot for others, sacrificed my time for my friends, but then got dick in return. So now I am done doing that. An example...meaning I would go out on a limb for them (them general here too buddies) a lot of times, and never once would they for me. Payback is a bitch, sorry guys.

I have learned I am alone in this world. No one is really there to help you when you need it, so I've learned to only count on me, especially when it matters most. Other people, almost all other people in this world, can not be trusted and counted on. ESPECIALLY, when you really need it. It's just true, and anyone that tries to tell me differently, you are wrong, at least when it comes to my life and probably a lot of people's lives. Wow, this entry is going off in a place I never thought it would go haha. I am just writing whatever comes to my fingertips here. Seriously though, people will shit on you if you let them. Everyone thinks about themselves first, and you know what, you have too. If you don't, you will get devoured alive. If you really know me, I am one of the most un-selfish people ever, as much as this whole entry may sound totally selfish. It just gets frustrating. And that's why I am typing what I am typing out I guess.

So...I think that may be it for now. You know what I really hate about this livejournal client, that it ALWAYS turns off comments and I always have to remember to turn off "disallow comments" every single time. It gets so annoying. Otherwise, its a cool client. I'm done for now. Thanks for reading, if you did this whole stupid long thing.

Date:	2005-01-01 21:49
Subject:	It's been a while
Security:	Public
Mood:	blah
Music:	Finch - Letters to You (Acoustic)

And basically it has been a while because I have had nothing to say. Nothing in my life has been going on and all I do is sleep all day till the sun has already gone down and just get up, go do something for a couple of hours, come back, stay up late, sleep the sun goes down again. You notice a pattern? Oh well. This break has been relaxing none the less. I mean all I do is sleep, so that is relaxing. Maybe stuff has happened since I wrote in here last now that I think about it but I dont like writing it out.

Date:	2004-12-15 03:26
Subject:	Lyrics, part II
Security:	Public
Mood:	contemplative
Music:	Linkin Park - Faint

So a while back....I wrote a massive entry with a lot of my favorite lyrics from various songs. Well...now it is time for part II. I am bored, awake and it is 2:36am...and this is what I am going to do with my time. Of course almost all these lyrics I put in here are 98% likely to be personal, or relating or something to that nature. Here weeeeeee goooooooooo


"It's so simple and complicated.
The way you can crush me.
No matter how much this hurts, this is through." - Playing for Keeps, Matchbook Romance


"Let’s play this game called 'when you catch fire'
I wouldn’t piss to put you out
Stop burning bridges and drive off of them
So I can forget about you

So bury me in memory
His smile’s your rope
So wrap it tight around your throat" - Tell that Mick He Just Made My List of Things to Do, Falloutboy (I really love this song and I often put it in my away messages and profile)


"You need him. I could be him...
I could be an accident but I'm still trying.
That's more than I can say for him." - Grand Theft Autumn/Where is Your Boy, Falloutboy (story of my life)


"I haven't had a sober night
Ever since you left me
And my days don't start until the sun goes down
A vampire
Draining every bottle
They're all I have to quench these memories" - Cross My Heart, Home Grown


"What does it take to be a super hero in my world
make no mistake that these villains always get the girl
we can escape and then we'd skate away from all of this
but no one ever does" - Straw Dog, Something Corporate


"It’s too bad
You missed out on me
And it’s so sad
Sad that you’re gone away
And I’m sorry
That you missed out on me
But it’s too late
You let my love slip away" - Slip Away, 112


"Every time I look at you the world just melts away
All my troubles all my fears dissolve in your affections
You've seen me at my weakest but you take me as I am
And when I fall you offer me a softer place to land" - Push, Sarah McLachlan


"Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, Yeah

Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share
With no one who truly cares for me" - If I Aint Got You, Alicia Keys (*sigh*...)



"I went to the closet to get dressed for work
When I spotted a box I had not seen before
With all kinds of letters that never got sent to a guy in Colorado since 1994
And I know it's wrong
But I sat and opened in no certain order
A letter or two she talked about blisters and bruises of anger
And she bought a handgun to learn how to shoot
And the last letter said that she had to get out
But I couldn't make out the rest of the note
From the blood stains all over the page of the letters
There's a lot to learn
And there's a lot I learned about Joan" - Joan, Butch Walker



"Feel your fire,
when its cold in my heart
and things sorta start
remindin' me of my last night with you
i only need one more day
just one more chance to say
i wish that i had gone up with you too
and i'm sure the view from heaven
beats the hell out of mine here
and if we all believe in heaven
maybe we'll make it through one more year down here" - View From Heaven, Yellowcard



"I'll keep this as
A constant reminder
Of the nights I spent holding onto her
And rest assured I'm moving on
I miss you less, with each day your gone" - The Greatest Fall Of All Time, Matchbook Romance



"You'd kill yourself for recognition,
Kill yourself to never ever stop
You broke another mirror,
You're turning into something you are not

Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry" - High & Dry, Radiohead



"Could be an organ donor
The way I give up my heart, but
Never know because - shit, I never tell her!
Ask me about my feelings I'd holla' that it's irrela'
I don't get myself caught up in the Jello gella'
And puddin' pops, that others opt to call falling in love, but
For the record, have you ever rode a horse?
Would I like for you to take me to Pluto?
I said, "Of course!"
But if you ain't a sweety indeedy, I won't endorse
Hans Solo till I'm hit by the bullet, so may the force
Be with you, and I'll hit you when better time permits" - Happy Valentine's Day. Outkast



"These eyes they're strongly covered in disguise
they're waiting on the real time again
you'll see that no one knows for sure

for all of this
i'm better off without you
do you regret so
your loneliness" - I Want to Hear You Sad, The Early November



"Well I thought I could just get over you baby
But I see that’s something I just can’t do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can’t find a way
To let go of you

It's official
You know that I’m missing you
Yeah yes
All I hear is raindrops
And I’m officially missing you" - Offically Missing You, Tamia



"I'll be the grapes fermented,
Bottled and served with the table set in my finest suit
Like a perfect gentlemen
I'll be the fire escape that's bolted to the ancient brick
Where you will sit and contemplate your day

I'll be the waterwings that save you if you start drowning
In an open tab when your judgement's on the brink
I'll be the phonograph that plays your favorite
Albums back as your lying there drifting off to sleep...
I'll be the platform shoes and undo what heredity's done to you...
You won't have to strain to look into my eyes
I'll be your winter coat buttoned and zippedstraight to the throat
With the collar up so you won't catch a cold" - Brand New Colony, The Postal Service.


Ok, thats good for now, until part III. I might write a real entry, I might not, I have no decided yet. For now, byeeeeeee.

Date:	2004-12-12 00:52
Subject:	............
Security:	Public
Mood:	blank
Music:	Spitalfield - Those Days You Felt Alive

Today at work, one of my co-workers, after being asked by me how much he thought I weighted, cause we needed a thinner person to fit through a space in the elevator, after a order for the kitchen....and he goes, youre really skinny, or something, and thats why I said went through haha. ANYWAY....I go, how much do you think I weight? I really wanted to hear what he said. Sure enough...he said 135, 140 the most. Ok...so I was like......nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. He said, get out of here, youre kidding. I said no, i weight at least 165, 170. Usually closer to 165 though. Both him and my other coworker..oscar....couldnt believe it. They said, where?!? I said, its mostly in my legs from soccer all those years...but still, I am at least 165. It just bothers me that people constantly think I am 20, 25, 30 pounds lighter than I actually am! I mean, I know I look skinny, but still. Thats really really skinny. If I was my height (6'1'') and weighted like 135....yea I would be so incredibly thin, sickly thin, it would be horrible. But I'm not! I am 165, at least! So what if my body fat is really low and I can eat till i throwup and not gain a pound....still, I am not that thin!

Sorry, that shit just really bothers me. Otherwise, school is almost over, so is work. I did my laundry tonight (on a saturday night, why? cause really, I had no other time this whole week and I ran out of underwear haha and I'm the coolest kid ever.) Then I was going to see Ocean's 12...but had no one to go with..so as you can imagine, I did not go. Instead, I did homework and studied for my finals, ate, played video games and watched the sonics lose on the internet : / I mean, they are still 17-4, but you never like to see your team lose. Otherwise, I was a complete loser....cause well, I am haha. I don't even care. I can't wait for break to get here so i can just do nothing all day, stay up till 7am, sleep to 7pm and do it all over again,e very night for a month...all while not working a single minute!! Continuing with what I said up there about the weight thing...I seriously need to start going to the gym on a consistent basis. I like the gym actually and I like working out. I just never have time to do it. Next semester, I should have a bit more time and an extra day of no classes (tuesday) so hopefully I can take full advantage of the gym on campus and tone up. I dont' even want to become a muscle head or anything, but just tone up my arms and stomach and my shoulders. Thats it...have a kinda better body for the summer and the beach. Alright, I'm done for now.

Date:	2004-12-08 19:58
Subject:	ha yea
Security:	Public
Mood:	calm
Music:	Straylight Run - It's for the Best

I am so pathetic haha. Well not really in my eyes, but probably to everyone else. I am sitting here..waiting for basketball to start. Yes, my team has a game tonignt but it is not even on tv!! I am watching it through the internet for crying out loud!! The thing is, it is a big game. My team, seattle, is 15-3 and the spurs are 16-3, literally two of the best teams in the NBA right now playing tonight. If seattle wasnt doing so well so far this season, I would have done something with my time. Also, I have no homework and no work...so i am just relaxing.

Yes, this entry is completely pointless. I cant wait for winter break though, and so I can do nothing for a month but what I am doing right now (nothing) and just sleep and play video games. I wish it would just get here already though. It is so dragging. Alright i'm gona finish my game of madden currently on pause.

Date:	2004-12-05 00:53
Subject:	Yup
Security:	Public
Mood:	exhausted
Music:	Yellowcard - Twentythree

Ok, so I am exhausted. But, the sonics are on tonight...well, on the internet through a real-time scoreboard haha, but hey..I don't even get to watch that often..so I am right now. Currently, they are up by 10 with about 5 minutes left in the game.

Anyway, I went up to CT yesterday to see kristen and be her date to her formal at her school. She goes to sacred heart university, which is in fairfield, CT. It was a bit of a hike to get there, but it was well worth it. Words can't describe her, so I'm not even going to try. I am so glad I met her and that she is still in my life. She is such an amazing person and a joy to be around. Of course, I wrote in here a million trillion times about her, and how I feel about her, and just yea haha. I don't think I need to type it all again. Although it is my journal and I can do what I want, but....I'll spare ya. She is just amazing, no other way to put it. The night, well....I got to her apartment, met all her roommates and some of her other friends. We pre-gamed at her townhouse before going to the formal, and that was quality. She has a lot of fun friends haha. Her and I just kept drinking lots of wine, it was quality. We get there, liteally run to the bathroom cause the bus ride wasssssss foreveveveveverrrrr long, and they got our, along with everyone else, "21 year old braclets" and went into the "drinking room". Basically, the bar was in there, (not open)..and we had to stay in there and drink. So, we did...more wine haha. Then out to the dance floor and dancing. I actually danced, i was proud of myself haha. So, basically....we danced more, ate, drank more, then to the bus back to her apartment. Not just us, but like the whole group took buses there and back. We then went back to her town house, and proceeded to pass out and try to sleep. I got a headache at like 5am...and her roommate was snoring heavily because of being sick. So...that = perry not sleeping much at all. Hardly nothing, like an hour, 2 the most. Its all good....b/c it was a good time. I'm really glad I went, and kristen, if you read this, I'm really glad you asked me to go. Thanks so much.

Anyway, I also proceeded to call out of work today, which was very very high quality. I mean, i was supposed ot work 2-12...with no break. Yea suckage. So I just called and said I wouldnt be in today and they were like....ok haha. So yea, I was gona sleep..but I still haven't. Now, I am just waiting for the sonics game to be over. Tomorrow....work at night....maybe HW during the day?? Probably not, cause..well, just probably not. For now, I am too tired to type anymore and/or I just can't think right now. So, I'm done for now.

Date:	2004-11-25 04:12
Subject:	Whoaaaa
Security:	Public
Mood:	drunk
Music:	The keyboard clicking away..

Whoa....semi-drunk post. More of a buzz now. Fun night. Chill night. Went to 2 bars, and a diner. The Regenttttttttttt baby!! That fucking food hit the spot and it doesnt make me sick like the fucking crystal place!! Anyway...Saw matchbook romance last night with Kim...good stuff. They are SO awesome live and just awesome in general.


I handed in my 19 page paper today. Yea, I wrote 19 pages in 2 hours, you are jealous. Seriously, you are, just don't be in denial. A little break from school..can't wait for winter break and jsut chillin and hanging out and sleeping!!! My dad bought this new clock that he put in the living room..and it makes all these weird ass noises! Like...every 15 minutes. So annoying.

Lost my train of thought. Tomorrow! Tomorrow is thanksgiving. My sister is coming down, I'm excited. New York Bagels for breakfastttttttttt!! MMMMMmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. So good! I can't wait to gain like 40 pounds tomorrow. HA..yea right. We all know I couldn't gain weight if I ate liquid fat. Ok, thats gross. BUt yea, weight gaining doesn't work for me. This post is getting out of control. I bid thee goodnight.

Date:	2004-11-22 03:03
Subject:	I'm kinda tired
Security:	Public
Mood:	curious
Music:	Hey Mercedes - Haven't Been This Happy

I really am, and I guess I should be since it is about 2:30am. I got home from work tonight at like 1:40 ish. Not to bad I guess. It's funny how I think about work now, and just my life in general.

If you asked me 5 years ago, where would you be in 5 years..I woulda said..graduated college, out in the real world, most likely teaching. Yes, teaching. I originally wanted to be a teacher for a really long time and that was my first major. Well, history, but to be a history teacher.

It was all set. As a freshmen, I was going away to school. I got accepted, I went to orientation, got my schedule, got my roommate, knew people from HS going there. Oh...how things turned out different.

So different. The job I am STILL working at now, 4.5 years later.....I was suppose to quit in 2 months that summer. Maybe not quit, but def. possibly only work on breaks. What happened? My dad refused to help me pay for school, not even all of it, but $3000 out of the $10,500/year it was to go there. So, all in a week, in about the 2nd or 3rd week of august of 2000...I withdrew totally from william paterson, and signed up for OCC. I proceeded to go there for the next 2 years. I continued to work at my job I'm still working at now that summer. I met some really great people through that job in the end of that summer, which I never would have met if I did go to school like I was supposed too. Of course, I think I am still in contact with......one haha..but that doesnt matter.

Anyway, I went to OCC..changed my major a bunch of times, got into a car accident my first day of college ever. My life......it took like the wrong exit or something haha. Ok, not really but it totally decided....."Hey fuck it...'exit william paterson coming up'...nahhhhh lets take the exit, 3 exits down on the other side of the road". It just amazes me how much my life would have been different at this point. All the people I have met, how I wouldn't have met them. All the girls I liked, I woulda never known them. Of course, there probably would have been other girls, but still.

I just think where I am now. I am still in school and will be for another 2 semesters. I am going for a degree, why? To get a good job. Why am I then going to goto grad school? To get a better job. And then go onto to get my doctrine, to get an even better job. I am still working at this same job, in incredible amounts of debt and who knows where I will end up next. I kinda like it that way, but seriously its scary at the same time. I look back now and see how many people I've become friends with, and at the same time become unfriends with. How many girls said they liked me and then just talking to me haha. Those are always the best. I don't think I will ever get that one. Any girl that ever did that to me, as much as it did indeed hurt, they are total cowards. Be a man (or woman maybe is the best word), basically, a better person, and just fucking be honest and tell me the truth. Don't just....stop talking to me and wait for me to just stop trying just because you are too big of a chickenshit to confront me about it. So looking back now, they are cowards, every single one of them. And for that, I am glad they are not in my life anymore and nothing ever happened. For the friends part of that, well anyone that has become unfriends with me, fuck you. Seriously, I mean do I need you in my life? NOPE. Look.........I'm still breathing without you!! Wow, I can still sleep at night without having you as a friend in my life. If anything, I want to say thanks, cause you made me see the truth in how most people are and exactly what I do not want to be.

I am aware this is getting long, but I am going to keep on typing away. Life is funny. It takes us in places we never imagine. Exactly how do we get ourselves into the things we get into?? I mean if you ever really think about it, its quite comical. And most of the time, we lay at the blame. Of course not all the time, but most of the time. And this applies to everything that you can possibly think of haha. It really does. Money, relationships, friends, anything. This part is going to sound corny, but oh well. This is this song I have taken a liking too, and its a country song hahaha. Yea i know, what!?!? But its good. It's by tim mcgraw and its called "Live like you were dying". I mean, that is so true. Why would you do it any other way? Techincally, each day we all are dying. The minute you are born, you start to die. I don't mean to sound pestimestic, but its true. Each day we live, is a day closer to when we will die. We will all die. There is no stopping that. Isn't that kinda scary? Who ever is reading this right now, is going to die eventually. And guess what? There is nothing you can do about it. There is nothing I can do about it. But, back to the song, its a great song. I don't care if it is corny or if its country, but its message is great. Fucking live like you were dying man. Why would you do it otherwise? Well....you could say cause of laws, governments, money (or lack there of), stuff like that. So yea, don't jsut got steal all this money cause man! live like you are dying!!! No. I don't mean it like that. I mean, just live life. If you want to do something, fucking do it. If you love someone, tell them. Yea, who cares if they don't feel the same. What if they died tomorrow and you never got to say how you felt, then the chance is lost forever. Of course I need to take my own advice here, haha...but lately, I have been trying. I have been worrying less (with the exception of the last week and the stress/anger my mother caused and continues to probably cause).

I've been alright. I am doing pretty well this semester grade wise and I'm happy with that. I am not too happy with my job, more so just the hours it makes me work for the crap pay...but I decided I am not working over winter break. Why? Well..for one...i fucking want too!! I want and need a break where i do nothing. I goto class (sometimes haha) and work. Yea...see thats my life. Sucks. So...from december whatever to janurary 18th, I will not do a thing. I will most likely sleep all day every day, but hey, I love to sleep (when I actually can), so I will. Lots of hanging out will occur and probably some drinking with my very good friends. Otherwise, watching the playoffs with the giants will hopefully be a part of hahahahaa....at this point...who knows : \ Just gona chill. Whoever wants to hang out, lets do it. What are we gona do?? Who the fuck knows. We'll find something. Ok, this entry was getting kinda deep and now I'm like..yea dude! fucking chill! I think its time for bed. Im pretty sure there was a point to this entry and I am sure its up there in one of those paragraphs. Basically....BRIAN TAM AND ANDY ROTH SUMMARY: Life is crazy. It takes you places you had no idea you were going. Live life, don't be scared of it. I had no idea I would be here, like I am now, but I am. And I just gota go with it.

Now, it is time for sleep, or an attempt.

Date:	2004-11-21 01:11
Subject:	ATTENTION
Security:	Public
Mood:	determined
Music:	New Found Glory - I Don't Wanna Know

So, I've been meaning to do this for a long time now. Ready?

WHO WANTS TO GO SEE MATCHBOOK ROMANCE WITH ME ON TUESDAY NOVEMBER 23RD IN PHILLY AT TLA?!??

Seriously, I need someone to go haha. I have an extra ticket becuase I bought 2, thinking I would def. have someone to go with and so I do not have to go alone. Even though now Jen and Courtney are going..but still. Also playing....I think.....Hidden in Plain View and Name Taken. So yea, cmon, you know you want to go!! Please, let me know.

Otherwise....Worked sucked like, hardcore tonight. Time went so slowwwww, 2-1130 never felt so long and we did 10,800 people by like 10pm...which is...a. lot. Ok, that is all for now.

Date:	2004-11-20 03:26
Subject:	Quick post
Security:	Public
Mood:	content
Music:	Eminem - Puke

Saw something corporate tonight again, for the second time in a month and a half. Awesome show. Story of the year also played.....and I don't really like them, but they put a really good live show. Drove to this college in PA called...Moravian. Small, little school, but it was a cool time. I went with Leslie and her friends, and then we met more friends there. Very good time. Always a very good time hanging out with her : )

Have work tomorrow, dont wanna go already. 2-11...shoot me now. Off to sleep.

Of day that is. I did nothing with my time besides eat and feel sorry for myself. I really hate how I get sometimes. Of course it seems so far out of my control, but still. That doesnt mean I have to like it. owjero;iwjp98weuowfwiuhfwfhwilfrwilhfw;ofhwo8yw9fywrhwrf82wrrh9pryt liro;rfhf;w8fgwqfyd0du

There we go. That about describes how I feel about now. Maybe some sleep is the cure? No idea.

Soo..I wrote an entry before and it was friends only due to emotional content and such. Although, there are people I care about greatly that read this, but are not livejournal members. So, if you are one of those people, and you know who you are, let me know and I'll show it to you. Going to eat.

Date:	2004-11-13 17:18
Subject:	Home...a quiet place where you can call your own.
Security:	Public
Mood:	anxious
Music:	My bird making noises.

So I'm home. It feels good to be home. Haven't been back home in about 2 months. I miss it. It's just so nice and quiet, away from school. Of course, I like school as well, and I do like being on my own. Anyway, it is just nice to be home for a little while. I found out today that my sister is coming down here for thanksgiving this year. A new tradition? Hopefully, I am allowed to get off for thanksgiving. Yes, we are open. ALthough, my boss from my theatre here at home called yesterday and wants to know if I can work there over the thanksgiving mini-break. Of course I have to find out if cherry hill is ok with that, but I would rather work in freehold over the little break, this way I can be home and work. I was going to most likely work at Cherry hill but then I would of went back to school and been all alone till sunday night. Of course, there would be a ton of parking spots and it would be nice to have the whole apartment to myself for an extended period of time.


Tonight though, it is a big party at Aaron's house. It should be very good times and I'm gona be heading over there in about an hour or so. Tons of food (good food) cooked by the man himself, and lotsssss to drink. Aaron and I will be making "the" drink, alabama slammer, all night long. It will most likely be what I drink all night, but it doesn't matter, because it is so good. There is a lot of people going I think, a small % of which I actually know probably. But, it should be a good time nonetheless. I'm sleeping over there tonight and then tomorrow i can actually watch the giants!! I'm excited. No king of the hill on here! I hate that show so much too, its just dumb. In other news, I don't think I am going to work AT ALL over winter break. Mostly, cause I am going ot be home for only about 3.5 weeks. Like, a day shy of 4 weeks. So, it doesn't make much sense to me to work and kill myself over my "break" to get one, maybe two paychecks which will most likely not even be that big. Instead, I rather just hang out, goto some shows, and do whatever with the people that matter most. I work enough during school, along with all that school work, I think its ok to take some time off. Also, I want to dye my hair blue haha. I cna't really do that if I am working, even at the movie theatre. Furthermore, If I do work, I gota lie about christmas so I do not have to work on christmas day, and I'll most likely have to work (and close) on new years eve. And then even if I open NYE, I will have to open on NYD like I did last year. Yea, I went 3 hours late, but who cares. It just doesn't seem worth the hassle, ya know? Now, if I wasn't going back to like the last day or january, or the beginning of feburary, to school....then it would be different. But, classes start up again on the 18th, which means I have to pack up and move in on either the 16th or 17th. If i don't work christmas and basically work starting the 27th...and then work to what, the 15th or 16th....yea it doesn't make much logical sense. Of course, I could always use the money, but not that badly. I just need a break like that. So, I'm 95% sure I am not going to work over winter break this year.


Other than all of that...Of course nothing is new haha. My brother took all of my stuff out of my room, and changed it around because he lives in the basement now, that I am in school. Well, thats all going to change once I come home for the break. I'm gona head out for now. I'll update again most likely monday with pictures hopefully, from the party. I'm outtttttt.

Date:	2004-11-09 01:20
Subject:	wawawawawawawawawa
Security:	Public
Mood:	calm
Music:	The Starting Line - Decisions, Decisions

Wawa is god. So you can join me in my endulgence, here are 2 (bad haha) pictures of me enjoying the greatness of a wawa sub.





So thats me, dark glasses and all, from the flash of course. Of course, a wawa sub is not complete without wawa iced tea!! So I have that as well. Good times. So I'm done for now, maybe a real post later.

Date:	2004-11-08 21:46
Subject:	Stupid survey cause im reallllllllly bored
Security:	Public
Mood:	amused
Music:	fall out boy - grand theft autumn/where is your boy

Of course, cause I hardly ever read them myself, anyway..here goes.


1. What is your Full name: Christopher John Perry

2. What color underwear are you wearing now: Green and Blue and Grey and I think yellow too. I'm too cool for school.

3. What are you listening to right now? Music, particularly at the moment, the early november.

4. What are the last 2 digits of your phone number? 35

5. What was the last thing you ate: Chicken cheesesteak and fries...soon to be wawa : )

6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? perriwinkle of course! Cmon, its in the name.

7. How is the weather right now: Cold and windy (although its not super cold, just colder than I want it to be.)

8. Last person you talked to on the phone: Drew

9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex: Usually...eyes, then smile.

10. Favorite Food: Uh, everything! Im actually a picky eater....so wawa subs!

11. Favorite Drink: Gatorade, almost any flavor.

12. Favorite Alcoholic drink: Alabama slammer baby! Look it up if you dont know what it is.

13. Favorite place to shop: A surf/skate shop of some kind.

14. Hair Color: Blonde/light brown

15. Eye Color: Blue/green......mostly blue.

16. Do you wear contacts: Yup

17. Top or bottom? If this is talking about what I think it is talking about...it really doesnt matter to me haha bottom?

18. Favorite Month: May! Best month ever!

19. Favorite Fast Food: Wendys

20. Last Movie you Watched: The Incredibles! And it was incredible.

21. Favorite Day of the Year: Christmas Day

22. Are you too shy to ask someone out: Haha unfortunately.

23. Summer or Winter: summer

24. Hugs or Kisses? Kiss

25. Chocolate or vanilla? Chocolate

26. Do you want your friends to respond back: Yea sure

27. Who is most likely to respond: Ha not a soul.

28: Who is least likely to respond: Everyone!

30. What books are you reading: Angels and Demons by Dan Brown

31. What's on your mouse pad: Its black.

32. Favorite Board Game: Life

33. What did you do last night: What I always do, worked and then homework.

what happened to 34??? ok...

35. Who inspires you: I find inspiration in myself.

36.Butter, Plain, or salted popcorn: I HATE popcorn.

38. Favorite Flower: Tulips

39. What do you say when you wake up in the A.M?: More like think...can i go back to sleep??

40. Do you still talk to your best friend from middle school? Yupppppp

41. What's on your desk? PIcture of me and stef, necklace, cell phone, contacts case, keys, montior, keyboard, wallet, couple cups, contact solution, a mouse, braclet, loose change.

42. Rock Concert or Symphony: Both.

43. Play or Opera: play

44. Have you ever fired a gun: Yup I have, all kinds of guns actually.

45. Do you like to travel by plane?: Yea I do a lot actually, its so much fun.

46. Right-handed or Left-handed: right handed

47. Smooth Peanut Butter or Chunky Peanut: chunky

48. How many pillows do you sleep with: 3

49. City & State you were born in: Freehold, NJ baby!!

50. Ever hitchhiked? Thats a negative.

Yea I know it says I am listening to the early november in the survey and fall out boy in my LJ but hey, i did that survey first. I am so bored. Yea I hate reading those things as well..so dont worry if you dont. I won't hold it against you haha. Ok, yea, going now?